Day 26

The sun is out, the sky is blue and I sit here looking at it from the window. The dogs and I did get out and enjoy it for a while. I took them out seperately again. The bad dog went first, then the good one. In all, I probably went a mile on the knee scooter. That's the furthest so far. Both walks were interrupted by visiting with neighbors for a bit of time. It was nice to get out especially since the rest of the week is supposed to be rain. Ugh.

This whole getting out though brings me to the worst part of this foot surgery thing - the not gettting out most of the time. Not being able to drive, not being able to walk, it all takes a toll. There are days, like today, I just want to stay in bed. There is little reason to get up because I can't do much. I know depression is a battle for me when I can't stay active and busy. Having the outdoor knee scooter has helped a lot, but, really, I just want to pick up and go. Work, I don't miss. Freedom I do.

I mailed my request in for the Shuttle for transportation last week. Contemplating those 21 days before I hear back is not fun. I want it now and wish I had thought of this earlier - like 21 days before the surgery. At least then I'd have some freedom. So, if you are reading this and have an upcoming surgery of your right foot, set something up now so you can, once things start to heal, get out. As a kid, you have parents to meet those needs. As an adult, everyone is at work.

I ordered a knee walker a while ago, but it sat unused for quite some time. I had it partly put together, but then had some trouble with adjusting it and just kinda let it sit. My husband finally got it ready to try. I see how it could be good, but it is definitely harder to use than the many company videos I've seen. I messed around with it over the weekend but used my crutches at the same time. It is a learning curve! I think I will practice every day until I at least feel comfortable using it with a cane. That will give me a bit more freedom as well. I anticipate it will be most useful in the kitchen. The knee scooter works in there, but there is an awful lot of time wasted maneuvering around.

The foot feels good, but, of course, I am not bearing weight on it. Sometimes I feel the surgery spot. This is hard to explain. It is like I can feel,the break and the plate and screws holding things together. This makes me nervous because of the worry things won't heal and I will end up crippled. I mean, I have had 4 surgeries on this foot. How many chances does one get? Scary stuff.